Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Not a chance.

Fine, feeling fine.
Happy, conditionally.
Love, more than I should.
Trust, more than worth it.

I've loved that feeling. The feeling of being fine. It'll change, always does, already has. It's weird. I haven't wanted anything so much before to just let it all go. Things wont change how I feel right now, that much I know. I wish they would.

Hair says I'm too kind. I don't think it's so much as kind, but I just do. I do things for people I care about. Think I care about. Cared about. I like being happy, I'll still be happy. I'll be fine. I know.

Today changed a lot. Feelings for people, reasoning, most things changed today. I felt bad I couldn't help my best friend when she needed it just because I couldn't skip math. That kind of hurt.
I got hurt today.
Not enough to not recover from it anytime soon. Maybe a week. Maybe a month. I can't judge my emotions that far. But I'm fine. I just need some comfort. Kind of badly.

I'm done, as of now, having a pity party for myself. Done.

3 comments:

Cassidi Marie said...

ARE YOU KIDDING ME?
You're not allowed to stop having a pity party.
YOU need one. I've had mine for, what, six hours now and it's not going away. You get at least that long, if not more.
Want to throw an actual pity party? You and me? It'll be like a tea party, we'll dress up and just cry. Watch stupid movies and BAWL, Miss Kara.
We need it.
You are incredible, and girl, don't feel bad at all. I felt bad enough dragging Haylee into my messy little heartbreak... I need to just learn the world does not revolve around me. Everyone cannot just drop everything and run to my aid when I feel me crashing.
I wrote you back.
I miss you already as well.
I love you.
You're wonderful, my beautiful Doll.
-Kitty

Hair said...

Oh, Yeah! i got a mention, although admittedly not in the best of light :(
But at least i have the hope that i cheered you up a bit after that statement was made. ;p

Heather. said...

kara.

when you're sad, that is when you call me on the phone.
and i cheer you up.

THAT'S HOW IT WORKS.

damnit kara! :]
winter break is coming up soon, we can cry for no reason if you want? okay?

if it makes things any better, i would love to be the goody bag at your pity party.

xoxo. and i also love you, more than I love Rob Lowe.


which is a BIG deal.