Graduation.

I'm proud, I'm sad, I'm happy, I hate it.
A lot of those kids have been my family for the last year. I mean, I've seen all of them grow, I've grown, and I love them.
I bawled my eyes out last night.

I really teared up when Shay got up there, but my the time Blake was walking across the stage, I was bawling. I know I'll see Shay again, so even though it's sad, it's okay. But with Blake, Steph, Cass, Fran, all of these wonderful people I might not ever see again.
And that breaks my heart.
I haven't cried that much in a long time.


Blake was the first to grab me and pull me into a hug.
He just hugged me and told me he loved me. Which means a lot, because I know with him, he and our family have been through a lot. And I just kind of took it to heart. I love the kid. I just want to make sure I spend as much time with the people that mean so much to me as I can this summer. Because in 80 days, it'll ALL be different. All of it.

I stepped away and Heather told me it'd be okay, because by then my face was tear streaked and wasn't going to go away any time soon. I needed her right then.
Because I know the exact same thing is going to happen next year.
Next I found Steph. I'm so proud of her, she's been through a lot too, but she made it, and now she gets to go live her life.
I grabbed Shay, Dylan tackled me, I hugged Jessica Jeffs and Annah, kids that I'm not very close to anymore but still love, and people I hope to be in my future.
After all the crying and hugging, the congratulating and loving, Heather, Britni, Tucker, Ellie and I all went to Denny's, had some good times, and headed home.

Probably the most emotional day I've had in..
Months.
It was very... exhausting.
And I'm glad it's over, but also not. Because now it's summer, but that means everything, EVERYTHING will change.
Which is good, change is good.
I'm just scared.
And I have to work myself up to be ready for it.

I'm just glad I have Heather to help. Because we need to change with eachother, and I need to grow apart from people that are leaving.
I'm ready, I am.



(Okay, did you hear me? IT'S SUMMER! And I'm so so excited. I CAN'T WAIT TO DO THINGS.
And it starts early Monday morning. The rest of this weekend is for recuperating. IT'S SUMMER! Summer summer summer. FINALLY.)