Anyone. Anything.

I feel...
weird. I can't even explain it. I don't know what I want or how I feel or what to say.

I want to be distant, not talk to people for days and have them miss me, and when they see me, it'll be like a celebration. I want to be missed and wanted. I want someone to want me in the best way possible.

I want to fall in love. I want to fall in love with them because they're in love with me. I want love. I want to know what it feels like to love with my whole heart, with everything I have. I want to be crazy about someone, and I want to remind them every day. I want to be everything to someone and not be afraid.

I want a new perspective on life. I want to do the things I'm scared of missing. I want to make a list. I want to be and to live and to love and to breathe and want and need.

I want to dance in the rain. I want to make dreams come true. My dreams, and dreams of people I love.

I want to move away and meet new people that know nothing about me, I want to tell them my life story and I want them to want to listen, and know more. I want to be funny and witty and interesting.

I want to be lost, and have someone find me.

I want to be a late-night waitress and listen to stories of people I meet and get to know them.
I want to sleep embraced in the arms of someone who wants me.
I want to sleep on the beach.
I want to travel up the east coast.
I want to live with my best friend.
I want more than one best friend.
I want to be beautiful because I choose to be that way. I want to get sick so I can bask in the glory of being healthy.
I want a life that always has the right turn in front of me, but I choose the other road because it's full of adventure. I want those turns to turn out perfect, and be a different person that makes different decisions.

I want more choices.
I want to think about different things.
I want to learn more.
I want to be free.



Before I Die
By Jenny Downham, read it.