Morp. :]

What can I say? I love them with my whole heart.

:O

4 Things about me

Four jobs I have had in my life:

1. Sam's?

2. Umm, working at my grandma's hotel

3. I did some web stuff for my daddy?

4. Umm, does being a daughter count?

Four places I have lived

1. Show Low, AZ

2. Tucson, AZ

3. Mmm, ANKENY(NOT Mt. Pleasant, thank you MOM.:p), IA (Short time.)

4. Annd San Diego, CA (Also short time.)

Four places I have been:

1. Europe, but only parts.

2. Iowa?

3. Hawaii

4. Minnesota.

Four of my favorite foods:

1. Ahh, Thai food:]

2. Homemade mac'n'cheese.

3. Cream of Wheat.

4. Anything my grandma makes.

Four places I would rather be right now:

1. Iowa

2. Anywhere in Europe

3. With my best friends.

4. With him.

Four friends or relatives I think will respond first:

1. Ahh. Cass, maybe.

2. I don't know.

3. I don't know.

4. No idea.

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.

My dearest Becca Lynn.

She makes me incredibly happy:

kara!!
i freaken love you so much<3
you are the moon in my dark night:D
you always make me smile even when i am at my lowest.

just know that you are a true freind to me. and i love you dearly.

we are the type of friends that when we move away and get wrinkly, we will always know that there is a shoulder to cry on.

you are my dearest friend and i can not even show how much i love you, no matter how hard i try.

no words can describe the joy i get everytime i see your face.

you are my pocket full of sunshine!!!
never change, but if you do, you KNOW i will still be there:D
you amazing, gorgeous, smart, great best friend.

I LOVE YOU<3

It's been.

It's been the best day of this week. Saturday will hopefully be good too, I'm looking forward to it.
Today was a half day, so we got out at noon. Steph, Shay, Blake, Katie, and I went to lunch in Pinetop which was different, and really nice. We went to the Bagel place by the Village 8, and that was amazing. They have vegetarian bagel sandwiches with humus! Soo good.
Saturday, I'm supposed to go to breakfast with our Morp group, then Levi and I are going to his sister's wedding, which will be neat. I'm excited for that. Then, that night is Morp. Who wouldn't be excited?

Things have been so.. weird lately. It's all a sense of detachment, jealousy, annoyed, confused, and.. nothing. I can't even explain it well. I'm trying really really hard to be happy. By next week, I'll hopefully be golden. I'm going to start running again, I'm going to start going on trails and hiking. I'm going to study more, I'm going to make plans. But, for right now, I need to feel how I feel, because I need to get over it on my own. They're things that have to be dealt with. So, I need to figure out how to do that.

It does not matter how slow you go so long as you do not stop.
— Wisdom of Confucius

I was home alone this weekend.

It was different, and nice, and I think if it happened again, I wouldn't be scared. Though I spent Valentine' alone wasn't so cool, but ahh, that's okay. It had a sense of freedom. No one had any expectations of me for a specific day. I could clean on my own time, I could do what I needed to do on my own time. It was different.

Now it's back to normal. Normal life, still different, but that will change.
Everything changes at one time or another.
That's kind of a sad thought. Sometimes I wish some things could stay the same forever. But I know they can't.
Sometimes I wish things would change when they can't.

I miss my best friend. njkd;gi;d

Alright. I'm done ranting and.. all that jazz.
I'ma jet.
See you there.

Awwwh.

-Sigh...

Can I just have endless amounts of money so I could buy these?
Pretty please?
New favorites. Lovee.

Favorite (and least expensive:p):


Then, these:





I love. They're so cute. I HATE EXPENSIVE THINGS.
ANYWAY!
Conferences today. All went well except for Bio, I'm just not retaining the information?
Gotta work on that.
I'll be back.

Huh.

Interesting day? Neat.
I'm not really sure what to make of it.
1. Got yelled at? But, I understand where she's coming from.
2. Compliments- read down.
3. Saw my adoring Cass Marie. jdksfgbdsjk;
4. Went to after-school lunch with Shay and Blake, and then to Coffee Mania. That was kickin.
Now I should probably study, but I'm going to blog first.
Parent teacher conferences tomorrow. That should be interesting.

It's nice, the weather is perfect, I love love love it.
Can someone just tell me why I like the snow so much?
Maybe because I get to dress cute. I got like... three compliments today. It was nice.
Anyway. I'm ready for this weekend. If I get the chance to hang out with Heather, I'll be pretty stoked. I miss that girl. AND SHE NEEDS TO CALL ME.
That'd be nice.
Also, might see Andrea and wee very might possibly hang out.
Andd, Brit wants to see Coraline again.
AND! I'll probably see Steph sometime in there.
Sounds like something I need. YAY THREE DAY WEEKEND!
Though, Valentines Day? Suck. fjkdsbfjks

I need.. to not get jealous so dang easily. Ridiculous? Yes. Worth it? Probably not.
I would just like to keep my best friends my best friends.
Ahh, overwhelming, attached. WHATEVER.
Izzie and George might leave Grey's Anatomy. I think I'll be heartbroken if that happens. Ruined my day.

I need to find words to put how I feel.
Give me a sec.

"You, me and maybe one or two others, we're going to make this the best great depression, ever."
"It does not count if you believe in yourself when it's easy to believe in yourself. It does not count if you believe the world can be a better place when the future looks bright. It does not count if you think you're going to make it when the finish line is right in front of you.
It counts when it's hard to believe in yourself, when it looks like the world's going to end and you've still got a long way to go.
That's when it counts. That's when it matters the most. "
"I won't keep circling the ocean forever, hoping I'll spot your island on the horizon, uncolonised and flying an old, tattered flag. You on the shore with the sand between your toes. "
-Thank you pleasefindthis.blogspot.com for finding the words I can't.

I miss old friends. I miss the ones I have. I wish I could go back in time. I wish I could spend all my time with you.

Alright. That's all I got for right now.
I'll probably post more later.


peacee.

Oh, by the way,

This is my new favorite book? It makes me giddy whenever I think about it.
I have a huge list of books I have to read (long list), what I've yet to buy, and what I want-to-read-but-haven't-yet-so-I-shouldn't-buy-quite-yet books.
It gets longer and longer each day.
Anyway. It's on my happy list.
I'm making a happy list.

I don't care whatcha think, as long as it's about me.

The rest of us can find happiness in misery.
Oh how I love me some Fall Out Boy. Sigh.
I'm not sure exactly why, but I know I've been out of my funk guys, and I'm sorry. It's weird, started Saturday..? And hasn't exactly stopped. Weird mood swings, and honest, I'm sick of it. I just want to be happy dammit!
I think there are a couple of major points though, that are bringing me down:

1. All this talk about wanting to leave Show Low and never come back. Yay college, yay new lives, I get the gist. I'm so extremely happy for every single one of you, I just hate the fact that you feel so tied down and want to leave. I don't want to be the one to hold you back, I'm just going to miss you. Shay says at least every other day that there are only four months left, and every single time I hear it, a piece of me breaks. Just small pieces, but once you break enough of them, a whole chunk breaks away. I'm not holding you back, I just wish you knew what leaving is going to do to me. Not just Shay though... all of you. It's not that I don't want you to leave, it's that I love you too much to let you go.
It was probably a realll bad idea to become such good friends with Seniors and Juniors. Suck.

2. All the stress of school is kind of taking it's toll, too. I'm so worked up about getting good grades it's all I think about. "I have to study, I have to study, I have to study." I almost wish it came easily to me, but working for it is nice.. just hard. I need some chill time.

3. I think I need some me time? Or.. some me-and-my-best-friend-hanging-out-laughing time. Quite possibly that's the case. I want to be people friendly... once I'm happy with people again. That's the best I can explain it.


Right now
I am feeling a bit burned out, but still there.

Right now
I am thinking about today.

Right now
I am really wishing I could express my thoughts.

Right now
I am looking forward for the weekend.

Right now
I am wanting to go read my book.

Right now
I want to know what’s wrong with me today...



Food for thought
“There is one thing I have to tell you, just one thing you need to remember always. You are my best friend. You have been that way for a while now and in my heart you always will be. That’s it.”

“I believe in pink, I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.”


Just give me some time. I'll get there.